Ugh.
I'd been procrastinating an update in the past few weeks since, as you could easily tell from the past few posts, I'd lost ground in my battle of the bulge. I had, about a week and a half ago, been as high as 266 but I whittled that back down to 261. Yet it still leaves me to report a 5 pound INCREASE in weight from the last update a month ago.
The shoulder, drama at work, fatigue due to loss of sleep and Phen withdrawals, anger over my constant betrayals to the Mr. Hyde creature impulses, yada yada yada... Exactly what I said I'd not do...find excuses. Heck, why don't I blame Publix for putting pasta and frozen pizzas on sale? Or Frito Lay for coming out with Doritos Locos Tacos flavor? Or the guy who invented the fucking fork?!
Some light is still poking it's way through the dense dark fog at the end of the proverbial tunnel though. I haven't given up. I'm still tracking everything on My Fitness Pal. (Despite a glitch in the navigation tools on their website...yeah, great, it picks now to happen, right when I could easily use that as an excuse to discontinue using the site.) My shoulder is slowly, oh so fucking slowly, getting more manageable. (Yup, it's mimicking the symptomatic pattern I'd endured when this same thing happened to it a few years ago. And the other shoulder a few years before that! I'll probably have frozen shoulder for a couple years after the pain and now soreness finally subsides.) And I think the increases in my metabolism brought on by the weight I have lost as well as the Synthroid have helped prevent me from really getting out of control, weight wise.
So I'm waiting for a good time to begin a new initiative. I gotta find a new inspiration. Until then, I'll hold down the fort, make my little baby steps each day and hope for this added 5 pounds to shed off before a new month arrives. Patience, as they say, is a virtue. Man, do i ever need it now.
I'd been procrastinating an update in the past few weeks since, as you could easily tell from the past few posts, I'd lost ground in my battle of the bulge. I had, about a week and a half ago, been as high as 266 but I whittled that back down to 261. Yet it still leaves me to report a 5 pound INCREASE in weight from the last update a month ago.
The shoulder, drama at work, fatigue due to loss of sleep and Phen withdrawals, anger over my constant betrayals to the Mr. Hyde creature impulses, yada yada yada... Exactly what I said I'd not do...find excuses. Heck, why don't I blame Publix for putting pasta and frozen pizzas on sale? Or Frito Lay for coming out with Doritos Locos Tacos flavor? Or the guy who invented the fucking fork?!
Some light is still poking it's way through the dense dark fog at the end of the proverbial tunnel though. I haven't given up. I'm still tracking everything on My Fitness Pal. (Despite a glitch in the navigation tools on their website...yeah, great, it picks now to happen, right when I could easily use that as an excuse to discontinue using the site.) My shoulder is slowly, oh so fucking slowly, getting more manageable. (Yup, it's mimicking the symptomatic pattern I'd endured when this same thing happened to it a few years ago. And the other shoulder a few years before that! I'll probably have frozen shoulder for a couple years after the pain and now soreness finally subsides.) And I think the increases in my metabolism brought on by the weight I have lost as well as the Synthroid have helped prevent me from really getting out of control, weight wise.
So I'm waiting for a good time to begin a new initiative. I gotta find a new inspiration. Until then, I'll hold down the fort, make my little baby steps each day and hope for this added 5 pounds to shed off before a new month arrives. Patience, as they say, is a virtue. Man, do i ever need it now.